Blather - : to talk foolishly at length.
Blogging is fun. I forget that when I don't do it for a while. Maybe it is fun because I am such a wordy (oops! almost put worldly! :) hee hee).....WORDY person. I like words and I like written communication. Of course, not exclusively, but I do feel more comfortable expressing my thoughts and opinions on paper than verbally many times. Possibly for two reasons: 1) Nobody can interrupt me and I get terribly off track when I am interrupted; and 2) I am a chicken. I have a hard time telling people exactly what I think about many things. Either I don't want to hurt their feelings or I don't want to cry. I cry when I get mad, sad or frustrated. Negative emotions trigger tears for me and I HATE that. Especially if I am mad.
Okay, well, I had a point, but evidently my point was that I like to blog......check mark beside same - we have established that.
ANYWAYS - (as all the teenagers say - can't convince them that it doesn't have an "s" on the end)...
Had a fantastic girls bible study meeting last night. Which was totally a God-thing because I was not up for it frankly. I was tired, still minimally sick and very discouraged. But I even told God that I wasn't up for it and that He would have to show up if it were to be anything beyond blah. He did. We had a great discussion about passion in our walk with God and maybe the teacher needed to hear it as much as the students. We talked at length about "Brother Bill" (Andy's youth pastor from Lake Asbury - same guy that married us). Bill met us at youth camp this year and was our guest speaker. The kids fell in love with him, which we knew would happen - happened to us long ago when we were youth! The thing with Bill, which is so rare among Christians, is that he is truly "salty." He makes you thirsty for whatever it is that he has. Anytime you are with him, even briefly, you know you have been in the presence of a man of God. Not meaning to imply that he is stuffy - he is the opposite. But using him as a very obvious illustration of the passion that is so missing from most Christian folks. Bill served as a great real-life example of what is missing in the people around us (and within ourselves many times). No wonder folks aren't interested in Jesus. Look at the way we act! But we analyzed what makes Bill different from the "regular guy." Narrowed it to three main things: 1) Love: He loves people - good people, bad people, lost people - it doesn't matter. He makes everyone who comes in contact with him feel special and valued - NOT judged. He manages to show complete acceptance of the individual without ever accepting the bad things they might have do or have done; 2) Sincerity: He is "real". Completely sold-out and sincere. What you see is what you get. Always. Same passionate Bill at church that we see at the grocery store or at the move theater; and 3) Sold out: He is sold out in his relationship with Jesus. No shame there. He is abiding in the vine and it shows. Since we only have power from above - he is faithful in his study of the Word and in prayer. How many times have I failed in that area. How can I expect to overcome the obstacles in my life if I never ask for wisdom from above? Why do I wonder why I lack joy if I do not saturate myself in God and find my true joy and completeness in Him? I can look good on the outside, but that will not attract people to Jesus - somehow we can see through that, can't we? (just rhetorical - the answer is a resounding YES!)
So, the lesson was for me as much for them. I need to strive to be more than I am. And you know, I really do want to be "real." I want people to want whatever it is that I have. But the stressed out, frustrated, strung-out Rhonda does little but repel anyone. Need to do better in this area.
On another note: MUST CLEAN HOUSE. The cleanest woman alive (namely Andy's grandmother, Betty) is coming to visit this weekend. AAAAHH!! My house is terrible! I was sick - then he was sick - then we had girls over. It is bad and I am not kidding. If I wasn't broke I would hire a maid! :)
Really excited about Wednesday night - Hannah is teaching youth. Very proud for her. I hope she won't be too nervous.
Myspace is so much fun sometimes - I got an email from an old friend from Florida - probably one of the best friends I had in junior high. She moved to TX right before I met Andy and we lost contact as people do, but I just had such good times with her. Now if I could only find one more person that is still missing.....and if LEAH would hurry up and get a myspace. Memo to self: - must email her re: that....
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