Man, this term is about to kill me. I'm taking a five-minute break from a final exam on the heels of another final. Blackboard booted me out of the system while I had just barely started a test and I've emailed the professor hours ago, to no avail. Due by midnight. I'm stressing (probably over nothing, I admit) that he might not let me retake it, which would KILL my exam average and also frustrate me beyond all possible reason.
It's not that this semester has been that much tougher than another, but just that with everything else that was going on at the outset I got behind, which has caused me difficulty ever since. I put SO much pressure on myself to make straight A's and so, I don't accept much less from myself. At least not without exhausting every opportunity to do better. We'll see how it turns out this semester though - I'm borderline "B" in every class, but I can still pull off A's if I do really well on everything that is left. THAT is why this test thing has got me so freaked out. I NEED A GOOD GRADE. Argh. Frustration. Annoyance. Irritation.
Add that to the other stressors in my life, and this week just has been a doozy. Praise God I'm almost done. Then I get a two week break. Yay! I have NO intention of working full-time during that break. Pray with me that Pat will not "remember" that school lets out over the Christmas holidays. I do not want him to ask me to work, because I do not want to have to say no. Frankly, I don't know that I have enough backbone to request to keep to my part-time schedule for two weeks. I am such a wuss. I hate that about myself. He doesn't *need* me to work those two weeks - it's just that I would be available, so I must want to work, right???
Okay, I vented. I don't feel loads better, but I will in ten minutes when I go to bed against my will. By morning I should have an email. (I hope!) Better finish up my study guide....
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